“Both abundance and lack [of abundance] exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend." - Sarah Ban Breathnach

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Hope and False Hope

I was feeling so hopeful since I started seeing my chiropractor. I was finally starting to feel better. I had fewer headaches, I was more relaxed, I was getting more restful sleep. I found myself with extra energy during the day. A barely acknowledged thought kept raising its head in the back of my mind, "Can this be it? Am I going to get better?"

Ah, but the holidays. The sneaky little holidays! Thanksgiving alone has sent me back to square one. There is no end in sight until January 1st. I know how to pace. I know how to take care of myself. But, between now and the end of the year, there are so many things that I HAVE to do. OK, I don't have to, nor do I want to, but I will. I will go to a Christmas party here and a school performance there. I will bake cookies and take them to neighbors. We will visit Santa. We will drive around looking at lights. I will do all those things that make the holidays special to me and my family. And sometimes, I will find myself enjoying the occasion and feel grateful I did this. But I will be putting healing on hold for a little while.

Meanwhile, I started Immunocal. Either it will work, or it won't -- I'm not anticipating any placebo effect, because I don't really believe that whey protein is the magic bullet that will make this go away. Prove me wrong, please prove me wrong! Dang, it tastes nasty, too.


Sue Jackson said...

Shelli -

I'm finally catching up on blogs after more than a week of being too sick for any computer time. I really enjoyed your week of gratitude! I try to remember to be grateful, too, and I sometimes keep a Joy Journal to record joyful aspects of each day. Maybe I should get back to that - thanks for reminding me!

Be very careful with the holiday season. I speak from experience. Some of those things you think you must do can probably be dropped. It's hard to do the first time, but you'll enjoy the most important stuff with your family more if you're not worn out or crashed. Hmmm...I should probably take my own advice, given how sick I was this week! I hope you continue to feel good so you can enjoy this joyful season!


Nikki~Down syndrome Storyteller said...

Shelli, just found your blog. I don't know much about Immunocal, but I drink a whey protein that actually tastes pretty good. Isopure in dutch chocolate or even vanilla is pretty good. I mix it with 1/2 milk, 1/2 water. I buy it in Temecula at The Vitamin Shoppe.

Don't know if this will work for your needs or not, but I'll give you some to try if you like!