“Both abundance and lack [of abundance] exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend." - Sarah Ban Breathnach

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Coming Up for Air

I feel like I'm finally coming up for air! The past two months have been draining. I overdid it around my birthday ... learned a lot from that. It seemed like I wasn't bouncing back very quickly. Then the time change hit, and I just didn't adjust very well to it. Again, I learned a lot. I've been extra gentle with myself, and I think it is beginning to pay off.

What is this strange emotion I'm feeling the last two days? I think it is Hope. Do I dare say it out loud? I am hopeful that I am beginning to recover! I'm not expecting to wake up one morning and find CFS is gone, like some bad dream. I just feel like my understanding is growing and I am putting good habits and practices in place and I am moving toward getting better. I believe that I can, over time, gently push back the limits of this strange disease and find some breathing room. Some room to live.


Dusty Bogwrangler said...

Yes, shout it out, fan it like a glowing ember. Live in hope. Dare to hope. How wonderful!

Renee said...

Glad to hear you are finding yourself at a turning point and able to move forward again. This illness often surprises us and sends us places we don't want to go......Hope is a good thing!

Sue Jackson said...

Glad to have you back, Shelli. I was worried about you when you didn't write for awhile but figured you were resting and recovering. It's been a bad period for us, too, and not quite over yet.

Hope is a wonderful thing, and so is learning!